your. SMILE(:

For a moment, i thought i will never stop crying. For a moment, i thought i will die, die from this immense hurt my heart is going through, die from this hurt and pain that's wrenching me apart. Yeah, i've changed, emotionally. And it's bad. Shit. I hate me.

Whatever. Anyway, back from shanghai. Envy my friends who have great buddies, great class. Many of them found cute/shuai guys (acc to them) and went totally boy-crazy. Kinda funny actually. Anyway, i really learnt nothing there except on how to bargain. My group actually pissed all the shoes shop off at the new Xiangyang Lu, because we insisted on 40/50RMB for one pair of converse sneakers, but the stalls only go as low as 60RMB. In the end, i bought an Adidas for 80RMb. Yeah, ironic. I've been doing many ironic things. So i can't really be bothered.

The dorms were good. Surprisingly. The hotels at Hangzhou was even better. The Shanghai's Orchard Road, which is Nanjing Road basically, was like Wow at first, but gradually you realised there's nothing special, because for one there are no shops that attracts us, and for second, you can't bargain, and for third, you get molested. (and i don't really want to talk about it.) Only good thing was, there were like 3 KFCs along the whole stretch, which is a good sign because I can go crazy over the Egg Tarts. Creds goes to Eeyang who told me that egg tarts even existed in their KFCs. Cultural streets are damn boring -.- So nothing on that. I think sitting on the planes there and back are the funnest thing. You get to watch many movies and eat airplane food. There's always a toilet, which is CLEAN, with a FLUSH, and has a LOCK, plus TOILET PAPER are always avaliable. Face it, Shanghai toilets suck to the core. They smell, there are no lights, they dont flush properly, toilet papers are almost non-existant, the locks (if there is even any) are not working. The basins are sometimes flooded with goodnessknowswhat. Okay, anyway, back to airplanes. Yeah, the last time i sat on an airplane was like K1? And i was still sucking on a milk bottle man. So actually to sum it all up, this is my second time on a plane, but first time alone, first time on a SQ plane, first time out of Southeast Asia. Uh hmm. Nope, not trying to exaggerate or brag or whatever you are thinking of. Just making my point across. So yeah, that's kind of about it. I'm not going to go on and on and on and on about Shanghai. One last thing though, hate the air there, hate the people who smoked all day long, really hate it.

I need to break away. But first, i need the problem/s solved, or I will just self-destruct.